Exhausted.

It’s difficult for me to explain how tired I can be – even to those who know me well.

Yesterday a long day.  It wasn’t a long day in the sense that I left the house at 7:30 and returned home again at 5pm, but it was emotionally exhausting and simply wore me out.

(I spent the day in the presence of a doctor and his staff who all voted for the other candidate. They were upset, angry, hateful. It was hard to remain joyful and my tongue was sore from nearly biting through it…)

I returned to my parent’s house, as they live closest to the office I had been in, with the edge of a migraine that I thought would pass. I had plans to head home to my house so I could change and attend a gathering for friends and their year old daughter, but that all changed when I climbed into the guest bed at 5pm and slept for a few hours. I got up and tried to be sociable, but the nausea sent me back to bed. I woke up this morning in my clothes from yesterday, finally feeling a bit more rested but still exhausted.

I hope that this level of exhaustion is just a residency thing and it’ll get better once I am in an office with a regular schedule. It can’t get worse – right?

(this isn’t the tone of what I was trying to do this month, and daily posting is likely to be impossible, but I’ll try to keep up!)